if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Thursday, December 31, 2009

2009.

The year didn't exactly start well. My grandpa passed away. Tears and all gone. Aish. I guess...I remember how it hurts to see my relatives crying. Ones that are close to me. especially jieyi. Both of us grew up a lot and I've always been the one crying. And i rather it be that way. It hurts like crap to see you cry and wouldnt stop ): Cheer up kay? Things aren't going well for you...but it will pass...love you (:

306 was a good thing i guess. I've met new friends. Classmates that are close to me that aren't just squadmates who revolve around me 24/7. (: thanks khengwee, yingyue, emily, huiling, jinyi, natalie, huishan, weishan etc. for all the things you have done for me this year (: I've been very happy (: hehe thanks to all those memories~ thanks for celebrating my birthday in front of the class yah (: yingyue thanks for the cake! thanks for the presents! thanks for always being there for me! (: thanks 306~ 406'10 ftw!

CNY. wu shi for the first time (: hai disappointed that i didn't have a chance to wu with jacjac ): jacjac dont be scared of wu-ing shi okay! you got your shiwei behind you! (literally too -.-) yay when you learn how to wu shi properly then we can tiaotiao tgther and do fantastic stunts k! jiayoujiayou! (: wo men xing de! khengwee! though you cant tiaotiao on me but u're still my dearest shi tou (: class caiqing was the best~ haha jiayou~ nxt yr caiqing. dno if it will be successful...but I hope I can wu with both of you. (:

OBS. Disappointed that I wasnt in the same group as rebecca, emily and khengwee? I dont regret now that I think of it. memories for obs is the best :DDD hehe bring smiles to my face everytime I think of it (: (hint hint jinyi) amundsen oy! :D

IPST scholarship. I'm really lucky to get it. aish.

Chem Ecar Competition. Icemo got into Top 5 in nanyang (: we represented nanyang in ngeeann poly comp. Sadly we didnt win ): but the other 306 group did! (: grats. icemo all the way~!

NPDP. Was flag bearer with ma'ams and peiting. (: haha it was a new experience (: felt so cool doing hormat for national anthem hoho. xD I guess the best day of every year is NPDP bah! feels so cool wearing full-u for one whole day although its super hot and sweaty! (: yay nynp! (:

Dalt Dinner. Last dalt dinner with ma'ams. Probably the last one too.

NYST2. Amelia ma'am, alicia, wenxian, glenda and me. Sadly we came in 4th only ): hai. I screwed finals. I hate the reason why. I feel srsly damn sorry for ma'am and sqdms because my two-digit score totally killed our team...or we could have gotten first... ): sorry...i shouldn't have let myself lose concentration...

UGBC. Champion. Jiajia, glenda and me (: thanks for the support always (: the practices we had together are wonderful memories (: haha.

STC'09. Barney. Things changed for me. Met new people who changed alot of things...

POP'09. 40 ma'ams left. Sqdms and I took over the unit. New NCO post: 42 Training head, functions member. Things didn't go well at first....squad conflict...different opinions...aish....i'm glad it was all over. And I'm very happy for my post. (: I hope everyone else is too. haha...

NCOTC. thank you ma'ams once again for all the valuable comments (: hehe squids ku de shi hou hao ke pa :X aish. jiayou 41! (: half more year to go~ ke yi de (: yay~ 41 ftw!

Scolded unit for the first time. Wasn't as easy as it seemed.

End of School term 09. Shandong trip. Met another group of people who made my life more enjoyable! (: Shandong group 4! :D Clarissa, Ke er, Alicia, Amanda, Weimin~

In December, something happened. changed my point of view of alot of things. I don't think I have forgiven them. And don't think I would...in the near future. Things changed. I hope you noticed.

NYCT'10! was in team 1...now in team 2. Seriously, I have yet to feel a sense of belonging to team 2. I feel like...I'm hanging in midair belonging to no team...I want to go back ): I know I do. But because I know the reason for the change...I cannot ignore it...aish. lasher. I wanted that role...but I wanted my ____ more ): sigh. things changed...jiayou...nyct...I just don't know which team to cheer for...

This year, I've changed a lot. personality and stuff...I don't want to change anymore...I want to revert back to myself. Just that with some stuff happening, i can't really revert back to myself so soon...not soon enough. I need to get over some stuff. I need to forget some stuff...before I can move on...

The year is ending in 2h. 2010. I hope things will change for the better next year. Thank you to my classmates and friends who have been there for me this year! (: last but no least, thank you squadmates! for not just being there for me but going through everything with me and making my memories of NYNP even better! (: jiayou everyone! in year 2010! (: hehe.

Goodbye 2009. Welcome 2010. (:

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:04 PM
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    nicole :)
    20 Aug Leo
    PCPS 1D 2D 3E 4G 5A 6A :D
    NYGH 106 206 306 :)
    NYNP/DALT BATCH 41! :)

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    More earrings!
    Bearbear!
    More outings!
    New wallet!
    Better MSG Results!
    Hoodie!
    New specs!
    Handphone pouch
    Cross dangling earrings
    Pierce ear holes
    Contact Lens
    New backpack
    New pencilcase
    New sport shoes

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