if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Friday, July 24, 2009

I was stupid. And still am.

Who's to apologise to me for causing all this mess and pain? No one. When you're the one to start. You aren't there to end it. Why?

Whats all that for? Proof for me?

How ironic. You told me you hate to see me upset or cry. Somehow. you're the one causing those tears.

What's this. What am I. Make me cry. Make me laugh. Make me smile. Then you do something stupid and then make me upset all over again.

This is crap. I said 'I hate you' but I know I'm decieving myself. There's a reason behind all this. I know I'm lying to myself. I'll get over this. I'm cheating myself.

I hate you. I really want to.


Because perhaps that means that I've gotten over you.

Hurt
-Christina Aguilera

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself

By hurting you

i know that i have loved you ... at 9:14 PM
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